Nothing Fancy, Just Real
Ok. Seriously. I can't believe I'm actually sitting here pretending to write a blog. Like I ACTUALLY know what's up. HAH. Let me make this crystal clear for you, dear reader. I am not a blogger. I don't have a college degree in writing. I am not the smartest person on the planet. I am not going to act like I know it all (ok well maybe a little). I am not trying to offend or push my feelings or experiences onto anyone. I am not writing this to point fingers or pass judgement & I can promise that things may come off like that but I don't intend it to so I hope you read this with an open mind and a forgiving heart and participate! If you have suggestions or life experiences that you want to share with me or others on this blog, DO IT!The biggest reason I am writing right now is because I think this will be good for me, particularly because I am an introverted, anxious personality. Talking out loud to someone about my issues/fears/insecurities even things that make me happy or excited makes my anxiety worse in a way but I try to because I appreciate and value what other people think or feel themselves. It brings a lot of things to the surface and I start to get overly emotional and I almost always cry which then brings on more anxiety because I overthink everything. So here, as I am writing I am hoping that my thoughts and feelings, highs and lows can be translated into text that I can make sense of and process with more clarity. Does that even make sense? I just want whoever reads this to know that I am not writing this blog looking for pity, or attention. I am doing it because I can. Because why the hell not?
Even as I am writing this, I'm thinking "Ok seriously, don't you think you're being a little over dramatic, do you really have to put it out there on the internet?" No, I don't have to put it out there. And this may seriously back fire on me. But I am not a person to take risks or get out of their comfort zone so that is exactly what we are going to do. Right here, right now. Heads up : This blog won't JUST be about the bad things, but about the good things that I feel and the people in my life that make it just that much sweeter. It won't be anything fancy, just real.
To end my 'blog', today is my baby brothers birthday. Growing up, he was always kind of a tough kid. He had that big ginger personality that make him a bit of a wild card child. I could look at him wrong and he would just come apart in a full fledge melt down that usually ended with one of us choking or holding the other down till we cried or my mom interviened. Because we are only 16 months apart, we fought like crazy and I'm sure for many years my mom was tempted to drop us off in the desert. But amidst all the craze, my brother was my closest friend. Happy Birthday! We are getting old!
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